I know I can’t tell you this, but it sucks so bad losing you as my friend. I was caught up in emotions and I thought I was making a good decision, and it probably is for the best, but I still don’t like how mad you are at me. I hate the terms we ended on, not that there are any good ways to part with someone who has meant so much to you. I don’t even know what to say for myself. I don’t have to justify what I did because no matter how hard I try to find the perfect words, you will never listen again. I don’t need to justify it though because I know I did it for you. And one day, hopefully soon, you will come to realize that. It just hurts, and I pray this all passes soon. I do love you. Deep down in my soul and in every crevice of my heart I love you. And I miss you more than ever. I’m sorry.
my heart is pounding.
i don’t want to see you. but I have to in 30 minutes. My insides are literally cringing.
